What more do you want?

With this question spoken to me, my mind raced to find an answer. I said I wanted more. With no long extravagant explanation of what more was, I just simply asked for it. More of what you ask? More in life, more in everything, more in God. But what more was I wanting?
Part of me said, I've seen, done, and heard so much, what more could I possibly get? I could be content with the place I was at, but I didn't want to be.
I want to be so much more. More in God. Was there a certain point I had to reach before I could obtain more? Would I have to be someone special to do the things I only dream of doing? Could I accept such power, authority, calling, relationship at such a young age? Would I ever be different, or better yet make a difference?
In a world where people want to win, be better, to finish first, to be recognized, could I ever be enough?
I struggle with understanding what more I can have. I struggle with the fact that I can be more: but I have to be myself. The person God made me and placed a marvelous calling in. - Yes I want more. How do I get it though?
I try to reach more by example. Yet, I look at the world, even to the Body, and find a desolate place. I see void, and my urning is not filled. I see lives filled with motions, feelings, and doubt. Maintaining faith is a highly uncommon thing in society today.
It hit me. If I wanted more, it would cost more. It would cost everything. My life.
How much are you willing give to obtain more in your life? What are you wanting? Are you waiting for more? Or are you chasing after it with your life?
For too long our relationship with our Father has been in slumber. It has cost nothing, lost it's power, and has been unfruitful. We need the new. We need an override of our current thought and emotion process. To gain selfless faith. To forget about the cost, and chase after the heart of our King. THAT is when we will find more. When only God can fill our want and need. What is your desire? What do you want more than anything right now? With as much as you've been given, whether you know how much that is or not, what more do you want? You already have the victory, the healing, the calling, the anointing, the power.
What is your more? What is the cost?

the band-aid society

during a talk in gym class about depression and suicide, many things became known to me.

the woman stood up on the hardwood floor as if it were a stage and explained the symptoms, and determinative factors of depression. which in every case led to the example's suicide.

she taught us how to spot someone suicidal, and how to talk to them about it. she told us what to say to them,

your told to spot the signs, tell them you care for them, then go to an adult and have them help.

one of the things that stuck out to me was the process of which the people go through after getting "caught" attempting to kill themselves.

other minor details i caught as well, such as the things the program said the people would say. that if you talked to them and told them to talk to an adult, that they actually would talk to them.

we were never taught the process of treating them. of helping them. we were basically told to help them cope with their life. not change it. that drugs and couseling was the end-all for them.

the woman explained that counseling was a sort of band-aid in the growth process of a suicidal individual. that it would help the wound heal. it would protect. but isn't that what medicine is supposed to do? doesn't a band-aid just cover the wound? doesn't it just hide the problem? the band-aid alone won't heal the scar.

she concluded the lesson by saying that the wound really couldn't be healed, just helped.

there is no cure for depression. you can take all the anti-depressants you want, go every week to see your counselor, and nothing will be different.

what we need in this society is not an ugly cover up for our wounds, but the medicine. the healing of it.

we need more than a band-aid. which is exactly what we've made God. the band-aid for our hurts. we let him help us, but not heal, because we are scared of change. we might get caught from what were doing. we might feel guilty about how were living our lives.

don't ever think that your problems, your hurt, your scar, your pain, your life is bigger than God. he'll be the medicine and the band-aid.

too many times we get stuck at the situation and try to fix things ourselves. most times we get to focused on realizing the problem instead of finding the solution of it. were told how to spot the depression, but are not told how to fix it for good.

whatever it is, it can be fixed. whatever it is, it is not bigger than God. whatever it is doesn't have to stay a problem.

we have overcome the world. we don't have to think the same. we have all the help we could ever want and need at our disposal.

normal is a sterotype

would you consider your life normal?

what is normal, anyway?

is it the typical "american dream"? - having a three bedroom two bathroom house, two and a half children, a dog or two, a relatively nice car.

the thing about normal is there is no such thing.

what is normal for one person is not normal for another, and vise-versa.

normal has become a "standard" of which we compare our lives and selves to others.

to make a cliche about how our world has become through this "norm standard", "the grass is always greener on the other side". we are always wanting what other people have, because we want a better, nicer life. a "normal" life.

if there such a thing as normal, then why is there different classes of people, different stereotypes, different goals, etc.?

is there such thing as normal?

if there is, i don't want it.

i don't want to succumb to the worldly desires. to melt into anothers way of living. if there was a normal, we would simply be robots with no reason for living.

if you believe in the very alive-and-present God, you should not be living a normal life.

when God moves, lives and breathes in you, you no longer will be known as you once were. God hates the normal. simply because He is not.

God called us to live supernormal lives.

we have to live a normal life if we don't let God control it.

nothing in our power will make our lives any different than the old lady in the grocery store.

when you follow Jesus, there is a passion to reach higher and do more than a mere human could do. that desire is there for a reason.

if we have the answer, are we just going to keep living our lives like the "normal" people do?

if no one does anything, how do we expect to take the world for our Lord?

when we live like the world, we belittle and degrade our Father, who is nothing like we are.

i pray that we give up our ordinary, regular, normal lives to the God who can make something out of nothing. who takes the ordinary and upgrades to the extraordinary. the normal to the supernormal. ~ romans 4:17~

how do we live different, you ask?

we get rid of the natural and enter in to the super natural. simply, change your realms of living. no longer will we think, act, talk, or do like our self, we will move with and in God. he will move and work through us. that is the only way we will ever be able to have victory. the only way we can do anything.

are you apart of this complacent stereotype?

~romans 12:1-2 message~

it's not only open, it's closed

my door is no longer only cracked.

not only was it opened, it shut again.

this time i was on the inside.

the past is past, and i will never return to that way of living.

things will never be the same.

i'm in that new place. that new realm.



something's getting ready to happen, and no one knows quite what it is yet. all i know is something will happen.

just when you think that you couldn't see anything greater, expeirience anything better, God always shows up and proves you wrong. He has something in store for us. we have to be ready and prepared.

i know what He has planned for me. to an extent anyways. it's something more than we have seen heard or done.

He wants do change the way we think, see, act, and do anything. he wants to get us all through that door to the new realm. the one where we leave that natural-flesh-law-filled life.

God wants us living a different life.

not only a different one, but an opposite one as the world's. He wants us to be so consumed in Him that we don't remember what it's like not having Him in control.

that door is the thing that either holds you back, stops you, lets you in on what He's doing, and gets you through to the more.

~matthew 16:19 message~

"and that's not all. you will have complete and free access to God's kingdom, keys to open any and every door: no more barriers between heaven and earth, earth and heaven. a yes on earth is yes in heaven. a no on earth is a no in heaven."

when through that door, we will live that complete relentless God life. there won't be a barrier between you and what God has in store for you. the only way you'll ever get it open is with prayer. pray it open don't pry it open. God is the only one who can open it.

~romans 5:1-5 message~

"by entering through faith into what God has always wanted to do for us—set us right with him, make us fit for him—we have it all together with God because of our Master Jesus. and that's not all: we throw open our doors to God and discover at the same moment that he has already thrown open his door to us. we find ourselves standing where we always hoped we might stand—out in the wide open spaces of God's grace and glory, standing tall and shouting our praise. there's more to come: we continue to shout our praise even when we're hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. in alert expectancy such as this, we're never left feeling shortchanged. quite the contrary—we can't round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit!"

we enter and continue past this door through faith. nothing else. God is getting ready to do something big, but you won't be a part of it if you're standing there staring blankly at it. not only knock on it, but have God knock it down for us. once you get a glimpse of what God has in store while your standing there, you'll desperatly want past. it's your choice, though.

ask God to bust it open for you.

the chosen

fox news reported on the 27th of december that there has been a "generation shift" in the young people. suddenly todays youth are standing up on their beliefs for more than just aids and abortion. the caption at the bottom of the screen read, "young evangelists". the thing different about us, this generation, we don't care to stand up for the name of Jesus.
this is shocking people and society. for too long we have been the conservatives who never fought back. this has changed.
you always hear about the "chosen generation" yet, are never sure of which one it is.
we are the chosen generation.
our calling was more than just simply preaching the name of Jesus, but to revolutionize the world for that name. your world, the place you're at right this second, is the one you were called to, rational or not.
we have chosen to raise the standard, and above all else, be a revolutionary for the cause of Christ.
we have chosen to unveil the Man, the Savior, that everyone in the world needs to know. we've done it in public view.
we have chosen to live our lives on the frontline, prepared for humiliation, persecution, oppression, pain and death.
we have chosen to not stay silent.
we have chosen to live in victory unashamed of the One we are fighting for.
we have chosen God as our everything, not our top priority or number one.
we have chosen to live outside the norm and natural. we've decided that nothing no matter how small or irrelevant, that it is clamed victorious, and possible.
we have chosen not just to flee form evil, but to overcome and overtake it.
we have chosen ot look that pure evil in the face, unafraid, only fearing God, not man and evil.
we have chosen to only be satisfied with Him, not the world, popularity, money, relationships, music.
we have chosen to trample religion and it's perks, rituals, gratification, and lies.
we have chosen to surrender our trust, relience, faith, on a Man that we have never seen.
we have chosen to say and believe things that aren't as though they were.
we have chosen ot live completely sold out to the Spirit, giving Him the room to breathe and work through our lives.
we have chosen to be radicals. revolutionaries.
we are the chosen generation simply because we chose to be. it's that simple. you have that choice, and i have that choice. chose that narrow road with your generation.
all it has been and all it's ever going to be is a choice. let your yes be yes, and your no be no. all or nothing. you can either sit or stand, but you can't do both. you alone are only human, but God is God.
we are the chosen.
~1 peter 2:9-10~
~1 timothy 4:12~
~james 5:12~
~romans 4:17~

the yes and no illusion

one question.
does God speak?
ok, more than one question.
to you?
now?
how do we know if it's Him?
is is possible that He doesn't speak to us?
is it possible that He does?
do you have to be someone important?
no.

God desires to not just speak, and be the overwhelming conscious in our heads, but to have conversations with his children.
so, He in fact does speak?
yes.

to hear from God we have to let go of that conformant religion. that ritualistic ideal that God is something, somebeing that can never be understood or known. to have more, a relationship.
instead of an illusion, a reality.

if we ever want to become the people God called and created us to be, we will have to be different than others. we will have to know and love the wierd deep whisper known as God's voice. not only hear it, but respond. this is were many fall short. religion has heard God's law, the Ones with the relationship have embraced it.

~romans 2:13~message {merely hearing God's law is a waste of your time if you don't do what he commands. doing, not hearing is what makes the difference.}

now, instead of merely hearing from God, which many can't do, we have to act, to do what God tells us when he speaks to us. many aren't even at the hearing stage.

so, what if you don't hear from God?

one last question.

are you listening?

your answer, "yes, but..."

God can remove the 'but' in your response. remember, it's the response, not simply the hearing that gets God's attention.

reform the sterotype and respond. if you don't, God's voice and words become an illusion that no one has a clear answer for. their response - yes and no to the previously asked questions.

what are your responses?

to understand understanding

We've all tried to understand.

We've tried to begin a new perspective.
Yet, changing your perspective does not mean we understand the situation.

We search for great minds, people who seem to understand.
When found, we throw dependency on those men who see with a new perspective. We search and thrive for knowledge. The ultimatum of understanding.
But,of course, is it possible that we can't understand? We try to

figure out objects, emotions, reasons, life, death, purpose, people,
faith, ourselves. The result? We can't understand. We try, but fail.
We were not born to failure, we only achieve it. We even try to
understand understanding. The wastefulness and worry of the searching
drives men mad. Simply because they understand they can't understand.
To grasp the concept of understanding, want and need have to become
equals. We all want to understand, yet we need to to survive. In all
reality something, or someone must understand. If only that “one” or “thing”
understood, he must understand all. We all attempt to be that “one”
for someone else, for ourselves. Again, we've failed. So why are we
known to fail, and not made to fail? Did that “someone” or
“something” have something in mind? Does he understand for us
because he cares? Should we trust him, since he knows all? Should we
put that dependency on him?
Since we weren't born to it, does it mean that we had the ability not
to fail? Does it mean that we, on our own ability, have to fail,
otherwise there would be no need for that “someone” who doesn't?
So, with that, does it mean that the “one” has a choice to fail,
he just doesn't? There is a difference between someone who doesn't
fail, and someone who can't
fail. The person who can't fail will always do it right. To sum all
that up, this “someone” must not fail only because he chooses not
to. This is one of the differences between us and “him”. We all know that if
there is one thing, there must be another. If there is wrong there
must be right. Evil, there must be good. A person without
understanding and one with. If we can't, “someone” can.
Now what? Now that we've established “someone's” out there, we
have to find out who he is. Will we ever meet him? Should we know
him? Why does he stay a some one, and not The one. We
always want to be sure, to know something. If this being, or thing or
man is “one”, does that mean he is greater than us? Does that
mean he will always be more? What if this “one” was a god? Will
we ever find The One? Will one of the gods ever be good enough, and
know everything, and understand it? What if this “one” was God.
The God. Is He the One who made us able to fail? Is he the One
that can, something we can't do? Is He the One we avoid
when wasting our lives trying to understand?This God is the only true God, or person for that fact, who could ever understand you or
me. Why would He give so much, while knowing He would never get
anything in return? How can He expect nothing, yet want so much for
us? Why is it that He is everywhere, yet some never realize He even
Is? Why does He love with a love that no one will ever understand?
Maybe we weren't born for understanding. Who wants a God thats
limited? Who wants a God that can only give or love a certain amount?
Maybe it's better we don't understand Him. We would never learn
anything new or wonderful. Its like starting a game that you've
waited all summer to get, beating it, then being severely
disappointed in the reward or outcome. Because our God is everything,
we don't have to worry about coming up empty in Him. He is never
ending, and He can give you more than you could ever hope or think.
He will always be more than you, with just the right words and
actions. He knows all, so why would we want to figure it out for
ourselves? No more wasting your life on searching for knowledge you
will never obtain. We need to choose to not understand understanding.

today and tomorrow

we need to live for today.
too many are living for the future. too many are spending their lives worrying about tomorrow.
whether economics, religion, the future, we have become obsessed with the things we can't control.
we have lied out every possibility, every circumstance, and in that, we've lost sight of today. we have lost sight of who we are, and now we hate what we've become.
we spend our day trying to fix tomorrow's issues.
if we would step back and realize the only way the future will be the way it is is because we don't live in the now.
one of the hardest things to do is live for this minute. even for Christians. once we get a glimpse of what God has done, or what He will do, tomorrow is all we think about. the only thing is, God wants us to grow where we are. it's not, "one day God will let me do this...", it's let Him do it now or never (to quote High School Musical 3-lol-some will get that.)
you may not be where you want to be, school, life, family, work, spiritually - wise, but you're there for a reason. it may make no sense at all. but then, does God have to make sense?
throw your reason out the door.
tomorrow will take care of itself. what about today? next week you may have a chance to witness, to counsel, to teach, but what about the last couple of hours? how many times could you have made an impact? it doesn't have to be huge. God will take care of that.
all you need to do is in everything you think, feel, do, see, hear, learn, give it to God. it will be hard at first, but once you completely give your life to God, he will make your todays count so you don't waste them on tomorrow.
i mean really, even the politicians, government workers, and newscasters are praying for a revolution. what are you wanting?

my door is cracked

ok, first blog.
here it goes...
recently i've thought a lot about the future and the things it holds and hides from me. at first I saw a closed door. a door to the next level in life, in God, in everything; which wasn't open. my heart hurt to know that somehow i had closed that door in my life. i don't know the details of what lies behind that door, yet I know i desperately want to be through it. i know that what i see and do will greatly exceed anything i could think, want, wish or dream... and I don't know why i want behind it. i know that once i'm in that new realm, there will always be a higher, a better place. i will see yet another door, and yurn to be behind that one as well. that's the thing about God, though. He installs in us a wanting, a desire to reach more in Him. we know that with Him, not by our might or power, can do and see better than the previous door, room, or realm. too many of us see a closed door. too many spend their time wishing it open. they hope somehow it will open, but without God opening it for you, you will twist and turn the knob until there is no knob to turn and God is the ONLY way the door will even open. what lies in store will radically change you, your life, the people around you and your world. let God throw open your door. you'll have to be ready, though. if you want to be in the new, you have to get rid of the old. you can not lean on yourself, or your own understanding anymore. the natural realm must die, and the spiritual must be brought to life. you can't do that alone. ..
today i saw my door cracked. i saw the glimpse of the new glory and new wonder right before me. the only way in is obeying when it doesn't make any sense whatsoever.
~ephesians 3:20~
~romans 5: 1-5 message~