my door is cracked

ok, first blog.
here it goes...
recently i've thought a lot about the future and the things it holds and hides from me. at first I saw a closed door. a door to the next level in life, in God, in everything; which wasn't open. my heart hurt to know that somehow i had closed that door in my life. i don't know the details of what lies behind that door, yet I know i desperately want to be through it. i know that what i see and do will greatly exceed anything i could think, want, wish or dream... and I don't know why i want behind it. i know that once i'm in that new realm, there will always be a higher, a better place. i will see yet another door, and yurn to be behind that one as well. that's the thing about God, though. He installs in us a wanting, a desire to reach more in Him. we know that with Him, not by our might or power, can do and see better than the previous door, room, or realm. too many of us see a closed door. too many spend their time wishing it open. they hope somehow it will open, but without God opening it for you, you will twist and turn the knob until there is no knob to turn and God is the ONLY way the door will even open. what lies in store will radically change you, your life, the people around you and your world. let God throw open your door. you'll have to be ready, though. if you want to be in the new, you have to get rid of the old. you can not lean on yourself, or your own understanding anymore. the natural realm must die, and the spiritual must be brought to life. you can't do that alone. ..
today i saw my door cracked. i saw the glimpse of the new glory and new wonder right before me. the only way in is obeying when it doesn't make any sense whatsoever.
~ephesians 3:20~
~romans 5: 1-5 message~